Chemo number 6!

I have a few things to say in this blog so bear with me. First of all I need to share the best compliment anyone has ever given me. I walked in to the front office at work and the lady that sits behind the counter told me that when she sees me, she sees someone who sees things in a different way. Automatically I was a little surprised. She went on to tell me that when she sees me, she sees God. This brought tears to my eyes. Its amazing how a sickness can tear your physical body apart but bring your heart and spirit to the father. I pray that I am able to appear to more people this way. I pray more than anything that I can appear to my children this way.
Chemo number 5 was a whole lot of the same. A little more painful than most. It seems like sessions 1,3 and 5 were the worst so hopefully 6 won't be as bad. I am sitting here in the hospital writing this so this certainly on my mind. I don't know if mentioned this but the steroids I take have made me a steroid induced diabetic. What this means basically is I have type 2 diabetes which is very controllable. I have to give myself 5 shots a day in my stomach which isn't so bad other than remembering to do it.
I will write more as the almighty treatment number 6 progresses.



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My Cleansing

I am not one to sit here and talk about the pain I've been through or look at me and all I have overcome. Looking back I can honestly say that most 32 year olds do not know the pain and discomfort that I know. I truly believe that God allows us to go through certain things to prune or cleanse us so we can here him. Does God want me to hurt? NO! Will God allow it so he can reach me? YES. God gave the ultimate sacrifice to so he could reach me. I am learning how healing works. One of the most important things someone ever told me was that God has done all he is ever going to do. I thought...well that sux. It doesn't. God has already healed the sick, blessed all of us and given us all the love we will ever need. Heres the catch. We have to know how to get to these things. Think of it as a river flowing. In this river is healing, security and blessings. However there is 1000 ft. tall wall surrounding the river and there is no logical way to get over it. On the other hand there is a note by note, word for word map that tells how to get to around it and best of all what exactly is in it. This is very real. God has already healed me. Its up to me to speak the word and get close to him so he can show me. I'm working on it.